God made her to be her And so, she chose to be Full of love and questions Born a thinker who questioned voraciously

After having health problems I arrived overjoyed to a place of wellness, and contentment. I am finally able to focus again more clearly on the every day tasks, not illness. Having answers that work for my health problems, mentally being able to feel in control again, well, it was such an answer to prayer. That…

Denial, anger, depression, bargaining, acceptance, yes, these are the stages of grief. “Where are you Shelley Collins in your stages of grief?” I remember clearly being asked that question by a well meaning therapist within three months of my first husband’s death. Having no idea what was even on the grief cycle anymore, even as…

I never thought it could happen to me. I am an avid sunblock wearer. I wear it in the car, every day, everywhere. It’s such a habit, I have put it on just to go out for a walk in the late afternoon, as the sun is going down. But, yesterday, my dermatologist and my…

Sometimes I’m lost, But you stay near me, I can’t see you, But you are here. Never leaving my side Choosing to be present always My faith that of no mustard seed No mountains moved Just me Moved by faith size of dust Just when I think I’ve lost hope Raising me out of my…

“Are you feeling better?”I hear my loved ones ask. My Fitbit group I started a month ago is still going. I, when well, can put in 10,250 steps per day. Yesterday, I put in 4000. I was nauseous and the room was tilting. I am at that place with this illness I believe an addict…

This week I have fought vertigo. As difficult, and as challenging as this illness can be, I am finding choosing my attitude is very empowering. I have had these inner ear problems since my first husband died. I can go on about that, as I have needed to do in the past. The fact is…