Integration

Denial, anger, depression, bargaining, acceptance, yes, these are the stages of grief. “Where are you Shelley Collins in your stages of grief?” I remember clearly being asked that question by a well meaning therapist within three months of my first husband’s death. Having no idea what was even on the grief cycle anymore, even as…

Not Me

I never thought it could happen to me. I am an avid sunblock wearer. I wear it in the car, every day, everywhere. It’s such a habit, I have put it on just to go out for a walk in the late afternoon, as the sun is going down. But, yesterday, my dermatologist and my…

Vertigo a Lesson in Faith

Sometimes I’m lost, But you stay near me, I can’t see you, But you are here. Never leaving my side Choosing to be present always My faith that of no mustard seed No mountains moved Just me Moved by faith size of dust Just when I think I’ve lost hope Raising me out of my…

Predestination

These words came to me this morning. Growing up Presbyterian, one often finds themselves faced with the word, “predestination.” This occurrence I often find rather short of any understanding of what growing up Presbyterian, in that reformed “liberal” church, which has made me who I am today was truly about for me. But, this morning…

Surviving the Teen Years for Young People & Parents

Lately, I have really been examining how I treat my teen, and all teens I know. I find myself absolutely determined to fix what they endure. The irony is that I am realizing that I can not. I can not fix the problems they face, and its a hard realization. I believe the reason why…

BETTER

Feeling so much better, and I am excited to share this experience. A weight has been lifted from my soul. Hope and joy flood my heart and what has drug me downward is no longer even in my thoughts without a quick dismissal. Better. What a joy to be better! Facing an illness of any…

Journey to Better

“Are you feeling better?”I hear my loved ones ask. My Fitbit group I started a month ago is still going. I, when well, can put in 10,250 steps per day. Yesterday, I put in 4000. I was nauseous and the room was tilting. I am at that place with this illness I believe an addict…

Fighting Vertigo

This week I have fought vertigo. As difficult, and as challenging as this illness can be, I am finding choosing my attitude is very empowering. I have had these inner ear problems since my first husband died. I can go on about that, as I have needed to do in the past. The fact is…

New Year

As many of us focus on our diets, habits, and such, I am looking inward. These pursuits of re-examining our eating habits, or health routines is a great endeavor. For me, this time of year is different. January seems to be a measuring stick for me, and I may not be the only one. Take…

Fear

I want my posts to inspire, to be a bright light in a world where we give up on hope when the lights go out in our lives, a world where we count our own wrongs rather than rejoicing in our good moments, out of our own fears and haunts of the past. Therefore, to…